Happy New Year!!!
It has been a long time since the last time I blog. What is my New Year Resolution for 2012?
1. To be a better muslim- I really need to pray more consistently and to learn how to read the al quran
2. To be a better wife (less nagging, less moody, not too demand too much stuffs, not to sweat on small stuffs, cook more often???? etc...), mom (less yelling, be more patience, never forget to give both of them morning and night kisses etc) and daughter (to pray for mak soul, call abah more often, visit him etc....
3. To learn how to cook properly and to bake
4. To find suitable kindy for Maisya and enroll her for 2013 intake
5. To toilet train Maisya
6. To start cleaning up the room and prepare baby stuff for the baby inside my tummy. Which estimate due date is on 10.3.2012 (My anniversary... :) I guess this will be the best anniversary present for me this year. Well, getting a Chanel handbag or a one carat diamond ring from hubby will be an additional bonus :) hehehe....
7. To have a smooth labor. Hopefully, I will can stand the labor pain and do not have to take an epidural. But, I am such a chicken and hubby and been persuading me to take epidural does not help too. hahaha
8. To breastfeed my baby (by d way, insyallah will be a baby boy...Alhamdullila. Now, we will have a pair, one girl and one boy) until he is atleast 2 years old
9. To be more thankful of what Allah has bestowed upon me
10. To have more ME TIME!!!!!
Saturday, January 7, 2012
Wednesday, October 5, 2011
I Miss You
I Miss You So Much Mak. I wished I had spend more time with you when you were alived. I wished I a more patience with you, I wished I had said I Love You More often, I wished I had kissed you and hugged you more often. I wished I had asked forgiveness from you. I wished I had thank you for giving birth to me, for giving me an opportunity to live in this world. I wished so many things....so many thing Mak.
Pregnant With No 2
Alhamdullilah, now I am pregnant with baby no 2. She or he will be Maisya's little sibling. I hope she will able to love her little sister or brother. I hope she will knows that even though we are getting another gift from Allah, it does not mean that we love her lesser. Everyday I keep hugging and kissing her and saying I love you much and I hope she will always remember that.
Wednesday, April 27, 2011
New Life?
My hubby is back for good. He has been in Malaysia since 2nd April 2011. Now he is working in Dayabumi Kuala Lumpur.
I am so happy that he is finally home, with his family. It really breaks my heart to see him apart from his family especially his daugther. Missing 2 year of her growing up milestone, her laughter, hugs and kisses. So precious.
Unfortunately, pity for him, he has to drive to work, to go thru all those messy jams :) He has to adjust himself with new worklife, new bosses, new work environment and new financial budget. With no extra cash coming from oversea allowance, we have to watch out family budget. No more splurging on luxury stuffs, eat out as often as we like, and no more oversea vactions.
What make me sad now is he seemed not to be enjoying his current work. I would love to see him to do something he likes, well something that he likes but also bring money to support our family. He would like to move to another OPU inside the current company but unfortunately his boss would not let him move.
My dearest hubby, I really appreciate all those hard work that you do to lay a plate of rice on the table to feed our family, to put shelter on our head and cloths on our back.
I am so happy that he is finally home, with his family. It really breaks my heart to see him apart from his family especially his daugther. Missing 2 year of her growing up milestone, her laughter, hugs and kisses. So precious.
Unfortunately, pity for him, he has to drive to work, to go thru all those messy jams :) He has to adjust himself with new worklife, new bosses, new work environment and new financial budget. With no extra cash coming from oversea allowance, we have to watch out family budget. No more splurging on luxury stuffs, eat out as often as we like, and no more oversea vactions.
What make me sad now is he seemed not to be enjoying his current work. I would love to see him to do something he likes, well something that he likes but also bring money to support our family. He would like to move to another OPU inside the current company but unfortunately his boss would not let him move.
My dearest hubby, I really appreciate all those hard work that you do to lay a plate of rice on the table to feed our family, to put shelter on our head and cloths on our back.
Monday, March 28, 2011
Welcome Back?
Finally, after 2 year, 1 month and 6 days, since I gave birth to Maisya, my aunt flo is back. I can't believe it that it has been gone that long. Do I miss it? NO! But, it is definately to have aunt flo every month. Previously, the hormon for my aunt flo has been suppressed by my breastfeeding. But, now it is back.
Have I stopped breastfeeding? Not entirely. I still breastfeed Maisya, but maybe not as often as before. I started to give her a small package about 125ml fresh milk every day, well not exactly every day.....
Maybe lately, I have to bee sleeping during daytime with her, so she has not suckling as often as before. Since last night and today, I have stopped giving her 'pacifier' before she felt asleep. She cried and cried, trashing her small body,screaming her lung out asking, begging for her pacifier. I just hold her tightly and sooth her until she fall asleep.
The problem is, it is heart wrenching seeing her like that. I really would love to breastfeed her as long as she wants them. I do....I love her so much, but I realize that at one point I have to start to wean her off slowly.
My baby girl. This blog dedicated to you and our family. Maybe one day, when you read this blog, and I hope you will realize that I love you so much. You are my little miracle, so special and precious.
I will be always be there for you. When you feel happy, I would be smiling for your happiness and if you are sad, I would be there to hold you tight and wipes your tears away. I love you my baby.
Tuesday, March 22, 2011
This Is Too Much
What you did was too much.
You are a very stubborn person, whom refuse to listen to reasons. Please do remember, that you are not always right. You are very rude to another particular person.
You recorded the heated arguement which I don't even comprehend for what reasons. You purposely blowed the other person temper and you recorded then and you let another persons listen to the arguement, for what reasons? Are you trying to create hatred.
And yesterday, you told me to put my foot down to my father, while I keep saying I will try to discuss with him first. You are you to tell me to put my foot down my father?
And last night, your son sms me to ask me to tell my father to divorce his wife a.s.a.p.
Who do you think you guys are?????
For every goodness you have done, I pray Allah will bestowed to you 10 times of goodness, but if you did is wrong, may Allah forgive you and I hope the person you have wronged forgive you too
You are a very stubborn person, whom refuse to listen to reasons. Please do remember, that you are not always right. You are very rude to another particular person.
You recorded the heated arguement which I don't even comprehend for what reasons. You purposely blowed the other person temper and you recorded then and you let another persons listen to the arguement, for what reasons? Are you trying to create hatred.
And yesterday, you told me to put my foot down to my father, while I keep saying I will try to discuss with him first. You are you to tell me to put my foot down my father?
And last night, your son sms me to ask me to tell my father to divorce his wife a.s.a.p.
Who do you think you guys are?????
For every goodness you have done, I pray Allah will bestowed to you 10 times of goodness, but if you did is wrong, may Allah forgive you and I hope the person you have wronged forgive you too
Thursday, March 3, 2011
I Love You Mak
I love you Mak.
That is the sentence which is so difficult for me to utter to the most deserving person the world, to my dearest loving mom. I can't understand why it is so difficult for me to say the sentence to my mom?
Hugging, kissing her on her hand and cheek, is comman for me to do, but I rarely utter the sentence to her. I should teach my self to say the sentence to my mom. Without her, who am I?
And now, she is sick, she is in the ICU. I never been so scared in my life. Watching her lifeless body, tubes hanging around her body and mouth, I feel so sad and scared. I don't want to loose her.
That is the sentence which is so difficult for me to utter to the most deserving person the world, to my dearest loving mom. I can't understand why it is so difficult for me to say the sentence to my mom?
Hugging, kissing her on her hand and cheek, is comman for me to do, but I rarely utter the sentence to her. I should teach my self to say the sentence to my mom. Without her, who am I?
And now, she is sick, she is in the ICU. I never been so scared in my life. Watching her lifeless body, tubes hanging around her body and mouth, I feel so sad and scared. I don't want to loose her.
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